I am fooled and played hard...bleeding inside

I can't believe my parents set me up like this...
About a week ago, my parents phoned me and asked me to "make friends with" a guy who is living in Australia, he is the son of a friend of my aunt and my dad. I guess it's not big deal, even I know their true meaning was let me blind date that guy. But I still accepted it, considering making a friend only. But when they asked me to send a photo to the man's family to have a look, I started get sick about this deal. I felt really uncomfortable about that, and I even had a fight with my mom over this matter.
But the funny part of this story is that the guy is actually still in love with a girl, which I happened to figure out last night. Then followed the most ridiculous part of the story. The matchmaker was the gril's mother herself!!! And obviously my parents had already known that before but they still let me walk in that situation!!I was the only one in dark....
Irritated was my first feeling, then followed sad. I felet like I was played around hard, like a total idiot. I know I don't really into this guy, I am not really know him actually. I am still appreciate that I don't get to know this too late and I didn't fall too deep.It just that I find myself is always affected by my parents' decisions over me. I may not obey them at the very beginning, but if they show me the dissapointed face after, I would always change my mind and comprimise to make them happy. It made me never really had chance to make my own choice. As if I never had the right to choose. Pathetic... It is said that if you never chose, it means you never ever admitted to live in this world.
Then what exactly I am? I hate people decieving people by telling them that the reason why they try to control and arrange everything for them is because they love them. It's the biggest lie ever !!
But even I am considered unworty and unwanted by my parents and even myself sometimes, I know deep in my heart that I am still very special and beautiful and uniqe in God's eyes, He would love me forever without condition and pick me up every time I get lost on my way.He's the best parent and best friend ever!! I am glad I have Him in my life, holy is His name!!

Feb25th,2009

It's the first day I start a blog here,so I guess it's memorable to write a little bit.
I hope I could continue this one.I've actually tried to start a blog a long time ago.But I just too lazy to continue it.Busy is always an good excuse to postpone plans.But this time I choose to start a blog here for certain reasons.
Fristly and most importantly,I was really inspired by an American writer named Melissa Taylor,who wrote the book>,which I liked a lot.And amazingly,Melissa used her blog to encourage other people who are suffered from faith and life by giving her own experiences and awesome advice too.She is definitely a good example as a witness for God.And what she did inspired me to give a shot too.I know I am not any good wirter and the truth is my writing sucks.
But I promise you what I am gonna write it's gonna about my life and my feelings.I won't look at this as any school assignments,neither will I fake my feelings here.I am not fishing for any compliments or attendtion either.I am just writing about my life that gained from God.Hopefully you will get to know God from my life too.Life is so short,it is cerntainly a gift from God.So I do hope this blog can help me be a witness of God.
Any comments will be welcome here.Thank you guys for your concerning.Love you guys~